I've been struggling recently with failure. It's a funny thing, failure. When I step back and take a look at my life and what God is doing around me, I see His success and if I use my intellect, I can see and understand that I am free in Christ and made perfect in Him.
But I still struggle with feeling like a failure at times. I don't blog as often as I would like, I don't journal enough (at all really), I don't read, run, exercise nearly enough, I don't eat right, I can't lose weight without some silly diet. I'm not the husband and father that I desire to be. These are the things that often fester like boils on my mind.
How do I shake these things? As a follower of Christ, how do I live in freedom the way that Christ's sacrifice has allowed me to? How do I shake this bleh feeling?
I'm not sure I know entirely how, but I THINK I do, but its often difficult to do. I don't believe that it takes MORE doing this or more time in that, not necessarily more Bible reading or more journalling or more doing church stuff.
I believe that it's just more BEING with Christ. Not as a checklist of things that will help me to feel better, but out of desire to BE WITH HIM, living in His promise that His yolk is easy, that He is always with me, that He has paid the price for my shortcomings.
For me, I believe it just started.
